Are you damaged?

Are you damaged?

You know you are damaged
When your last hopes
From God and life
Are relieving pain
And not wanting
Happiness!
For you realise,
With hurt and injury,
Pain is the real emotion
Painlessness a mirage!

You know you are damaged,
When you are filled up with remorse,
With each little incident
With every little story!

You know you are damaged,
To believe in anything
Trust anyone again or ever
or ever again!

You know you are damaged,
Tired,
Hurt,
Scared...
Depressed,
Hopelessly
Insane!

You know you are damaged,
When you are a captive
Of this sadness,
Emotional insecurity
And imbalance...

I am damaged,
Are you too?!

Tanzila

As we walk past

As we walk past

As we walk past, 

this aisle of commitment,

the stage set for timely union,

the audience opposing, 

appeasing it again..

We look beyond differences,

ego and vices.

We ignore habits,

behaviour and words.

We leave behind pain,

loneliness and space.

We move ahead with joy,

togetherness and gain.

But in all this mirage,

we forget…

Your being here is not my reality,

My being left behind is the truth..

Tanzila

Khuda

Khuda khud mei hai, mujhme hai, sabme hai aey ahmak,
Usse kho dena kabhi mumkin nahi!

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Arsh ya zameen pe sirf hai nahi khuda,
Khuda qaiyinaat ki har tasveer mai hai!

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Khuda tera, mera nahi aey dost,
Hum sab khuda k hai!

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Khuda ik noor hai, in chiragon k liye,
Khuda se wabastagi ek hunar hi sahi!

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Arsh ko Khuda ka ghar na samajh,
Khuda hamare dil mein hai,
Wo hukumat mei, wo aqeedat mei,
Wo hamare har manzil mei hai!
Wo raasta, wo caravan, wo ibaadat,
har mushkil mei hai.

Bola iss nacheez ne Khuda ki shirkat ka jab,
Matlab jaan le aey dost, wo deen ki daulat main hai!
Tauheed se hote hain hum Khuda aur Rasool(SAW) se aashina,
Magar, niyaat se milta hai hamari nasil ko har hausla,
Tasveerein, mujaseme ki mei nahi ibaadat karun,
Khuda ki bakshi taufeeq ne banayi hain har cheez yuhi!
Quran kitaab nahi, Khuda ka farmaan hai,
Khuda dil mein tere aur mere hai,
Kyunki hum sab musalmaan hai!
Meri hasrat galat nahi, teri niyat galat nahi,
Khuda hamare jazbe mei, ilam mai, taaqat mai hai..
Khuda ko tu Arsh pe bitha kar khud se dur na kar,
Khud aankhein bandh kar, apne dil mei mehsoos kar!
Khuda hamari sans mei, khuda hamari ruh mei hai!

Tanzila

I wish

I wish

I wish I could tell you,

what it meant to be lonely.

I wish I could tell you,

what it meant to struggle.

I wish I could tell you,

how each day was passing.

I wish I could tell you,

how each wailing night felt.

I wish I could tell you,

How faithless I have become.

I wish I could tell you,

the miseries of my mind.

I wish I could tell you,

the craving of my soul.

I wish I could tell you,

how hopeless was my hope.

I wish I could tell you,

my grievances and games.

I wish I could tell you,

all stories I recall.

I wish I could tell you,

the promises you have broken.

I wish I could tell you,

how darkness felt.

I wish I could tell you,

the light was a mirage.

I wish I could tell you,

the time was a number.

I wish I could tell you,

I wish I could show you.

I wish I could reveal,

every wound, every scar!

I wish you knew,

I wish you could understand,

I wish you could imagine,

I wish you could save me,

I wish you could revive,

my tired heart,

that has stopped its beat!

Tanzila

Parinda

Parinda

udta hun mei,

arsh ki aur,

badalon se guzarta,

sitaara ban kar..
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udta hun mei,

shamas ki aur,

uski har kiran se,

mohabbat ban kar..
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udta hun mei,

jaanat ki aur,

Ishq-e-maula se,

aqeedat ban kar..
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udta hun main,

Tere Saaye ki aur,

Tere Qoam, teri ummat se,

Darr kar..sahem kar..
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Udta hun mei...

Musafir ban kar!

Tanzila

Janaaza-e-Wafa

Janaaza-e-Wafa

Izteraab, ikhtilaaf, 

arzoo-e-jazba,

duniya sunaati hai,

isa berabti ka kissa!

Humnava, dilnashien,

namaaz-e-qazah,

farishte dhoonthe hai,

inn ashaqun ki wajah! 

Shahenshah-e-haq,

Noor-e-chasm,

Tujhe di thi mene,

Allah ki jagah!

Naseeb apna,

rehnumai teri,

Azeez tha tu,

Iss zindagi ki tarah!

Hum chal base,

saath chooth gaye,

Raha baaki jo,

Hai Janaaza-e-wafaa!!! 

Tanzila

My Weak Moment

My Weak Moment

My weak moment is..
that moment of reality..
When the order becomes random,
when the people i count on,
become strangers..
when my thoughts become clearer,
crystal and plain..
when my pain is deep,
narrowing my veins..
when my heart wants to skip beats,
and when my mind acts insane..

its my natural tendency,
to scream and cry,
its my soul begging for mercy..
its my mouth, that dries again..
its the mirror telling me,
all that i believed was a lie,
all that i have known was hoax,
all that i have wanted was a game,
all that i have cherished was a name!

its my moment of helplessness,
its my weak moment,
its started again!!

Tanzila