Fading Away

Fading away

Wounded heart,
Battling mind,
Torn soul,
Passion withdrawn.
Skin tempered,
Hollow cube,
Jaws broken,
Sorrows let lose,
Immense remorse,
Of an ending life
Of a dying hero
Of a matryr,
A woman of pride,
A young bird,
With bigger dreams,
Had a plan for life..
Had a meaning to find,
This world to change,
In kin and kind!

She is fading away,
She has faded away!

Tanzila

Return

Return

I want to return to the same old life when,
the only expectation was to wait for Mum,s goodies for me.
the only target was to complete my homework at the end of each day.
the only freedom was to meet friends for an hour after school.
the only sadness was to score less marks.
the only happiness was to win a trophy.
the only worry was less time for exams.
the only reason was to be a part of my family.
the only reward was my Dad,s encouragement.
the only satisfaction was my Mum,s happiness.
the only bond was with my brother.
the only playmate was my pet dog.
the only choice was my parents' will.
the lonely 'being' was a concept in books.

Now, here i am,
Where only hope is to revive my childhood.
And return to my mother,s lap, where she made me sing all those rhymes.

And be by my father,s side and make him believe i am fine on my own,
Knowing i am not!

The only pleasure is my brother,s calls, telling me to stay strong!

I want to return to my childhood and my mum!

Tanzila

They say..

They say..

They say i dont like sugar,
Maybe i prefer salt!

They say i repel crowd,
Maybe i dont like people!

They say i am not presentable,
Maybe i dont like dressing up!

They say I talk less,
Maybe i think more!

They say i hide from the sun,
Maybe i prefer clouds!

They say i dont like spring,
Maybe i prefer autumn!

They say I am closed,
Maybe I am depressed!

They say I am arrogant,
Maybe I am reserved!

They said, they say and they always would,
Maybe I just shouldnt listen!

Tanzila

Abysmal Hollow

Abysmal hollow
In my heart,
Deep down, inside,
My tattered soul..

The relentless darkness,
Of my days,
The tearful rain
of my nights,
The thundering skies,
Exploding lights,
Heartless, lifeless,
Helpless Divine.

I am a punctured boat,
sinking deeper each day,
Drowning slowly,
In pain..
I am suffocated by virtue Of my existence..
I suffer with my troubled mind..
I suffer for my broken heart!!

Tanzila

homicide

homicide

your single 

barbaric blow,

with your spite,

delusion and hatred,

cut open my body..

my heart popped out..

torn in the middle,

every inch of it bloodied.

every fraction lifeless now!

not for a second,

did you consider,

to maybe give me your ear or

give me my chance..

you chose to be my killer,

and i lay here, 

murdered 

and

dead!

Tanzila

Soulmate

Soulmate

my love,

when you left this time,

you left a few things behind..

you left your charm,

you left your smile,

you left your unparalleled love,

commitment and joy..

you left for me,

a sense of belonging,

a sense that i am owned by you,

this emotion which i earnestly nurture,

this feeling is strong, 

this bond for life..

i always wondered what soulmates are,

i realised my entire past was a delusion,

i realise soulmates exist 

and you are mine! 

Tanzila

Today and Tomorrow

Today and Tomorrow

Today, 

I feel threatened!

my thoughts suppressed,

my expression quietened,

my existence endangered,

my body raped,

my soul hurt,

my ego bullied,

my respect compromised,

my confidence belittled,

my pride ignored,

my love rebuked,

my care snubbed….

This was today!

Tomorrow,

I shine brighter,

because I move on!

I refuse to be the victim,

I refuse to be the ‘sufferer’

I refuse to be a ghost,

I refuse to play lost!

I question,

I reason,

I imagine,

I dream,

I plan,

I think,

I comprehend,

I articulate,

I express,

to live,

for my identity!

Tanzila