Fairy-Tale

Fairy-tale

Will I ever write my fairy-tale,

Or walk through the castle,

Wearing my tiara,

a ball-gown and glass slippers.

Holding your hand,

Feeling your support,

knowing your name 

and game!

Its a puzzle,

love dies,

memories remain!

Its a mystery,

we are unable to solve.

Its a fault,

we wont blame.

Its a failure,

We live through it yet again!

Then,

You mentioned,

I won’t have a fairy-tale,

I know, I ain’t no Princess,

no fairy, anymore.

I never was 

or won’t be ever! 

I wanted my share 

of stories,

good, happy ones!

I wanted my share,

of peace!

Now, i want,

my share of 

solitude and

not be your mannequin,

a clown to please!

I will remain a Romantic!

I romance loss not love,

I will remain a loser,

who loves misery!

I will remain a powerless 

severed maid,

who knows her place.

I will remain a distant 

creature,

Who remembers your name.

I will remain a writer,

who writes,

breathes,

and expresses

confinement,

condolence,

corruption,

with compassion.

But I will remain a Romantic,

and write my fairy-tale,

a real, story,

with real life,

of a fairy in distress! 

Tanzila

Pebbles

Pebbles

Eroded away from the family,

and the rock-solid mother,

broken to smaller pieces,

ground and detached…..

still,

making ripples on the river!

Pebbles,

grey, brown 

or are they black?

living independent,

of their source.

making a newer sink,

with every applied force.

They travel around,

See new places,

Discover unknown lands.

They whisper to the skies,

in their darker nights,

astonishment or loss!

I like pebbles,

They mould as per friction,

or know how to adjust!

I love pebbles,

because they believe,

in their strength of togetherness.

Unlike me, 

who is away,

detached,

disapproved,

deprived,

and getting depleted

with every experience! 

Tanzila

Homebound

Homebound

Tonight,
I dreamt of the noises,
the sounds, back home..
I heard my mother walking,
around the house,
My Dad talking on his phone.

It was a beautiful dream,
Almost felt real.
This hallucination of home,
family and peace;
The mighty acceptance of oneness.
I smiled while dreaming
and woke up sooner,
Utter distraught...

Couldnt the dream last longer,
Or this reality fade!

I am homebound!
I am love bound!
I am memory bound!

I am bound to my mother,s prayers
And my father,s faith!

Tanzila

Jesus

Jesus

If I could incarnate as Jesus,
I would relieve the world of its suffering!
I would relieve the rich of gain,
and the poor of pain!

I wouldn't feel helpless seeing an old man,
travelling, walking, thinking alone..
It wouldn't break my heart,
seeing an old Lady,
doing groceries on her own!

If ever I were Jesus,
I would rejuvenate lives
and their souls!

I know time takes it course,
so does life,
so does age....
I know I cant fight time,
destiny or reason!
I know I cant question nature
or God!

But I still wish against all odds,
To be Jesus!
To heal the ones in pain!
To help the ones in grief,
To deal with loss of material and life,
To learn living all on your own!

I wish I could help,
Help this old man,
whose helplessness,
and courage broke my heart,
today, yet again!

Tanzila

Are you damaged?

Are you damaged?

You know you are damaged
When your last hopes
From God and life
Are relieving pain
And not wanting
Happiness!
For you realise,
With hurt and injury,
Pain is the real emotion
Painlessness a mirage!

You know you are damaged,
When you are filled up with remorse,
With each little incident
With every little story!

You know you are damaged,
To believe in anything
Trust anyone again or ever
or ever again!

You know you are damaged,
Tired,
Hurt,
Scared...
Depressed,
Hopelessly
Insane!

You know you are damaged,
When you are a captive
Of this sadness,
Emotional insecurity
And imbalance...

I am damaged,
Are you too?!

Tanzila

As we walk past

As we walk past

As we walk past, 

this aisle of commitment,

the stage set for timely union,

the audience opposing, 

appeasing it again..

We look beyond differences,

ego and vices.

We ignore habits,

behaviour and words.

We leave behind pain,

loneliness and space.

We move ahead with joy,

togetherness and gain.

But in all this mirage,

we forget…

Your being here is not my reality,

My being left behind is the truth..

Tanzila

Khuda

Khuda khud mei hai, mujhme hai, sabme hai aey ahmak,
Usse kho dena kabhi mumkin nahi!

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Arsh ya zameen pe sirf hai nahi khuda,
Khuda qaiyinaat ki har tasveer mai hai!

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Khuda tera, mera nahi aey dost,
Hum sab khuda k hai!

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Khuda ik noor hai, in chiragon k liye,
Khuda se wabastagi ek hunar hi sahi!

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Arsh ko Khuda ka ghar na samajh,
Khuda hamare dil mein hai,
Wo hukumat mei, wo aqeedat mei,
Wo hamare har manzil mei hai!
Wo raasta, wo caravan, wo ibaadat,
har mushkil mei hai.

Bola iss nacheez ne Khuda ki shirkat ka jab,
Matlab jaan le aey dost, wo deen ki daulat main hai!
Tauheed se hote hain hum Khuda aur Rasool(SAW) se aashina,
Magar, niyaat se milta hai hamari nasil ko har hausla,
Tasveerein, mujaseme ki mei nahi ibaadat karun,
Khuda ki bakshi taufeeq ne banayi hain har cheez yuhi!
Quran kitaab nahi, Khuda ka farmaan hai,
Khuda dil mein tere aur mere hai,
Kyunki hum sab musalmaan hai!
Meri hasrat galat nahi, teri niyat galat nahi,
Khuda hamare jazbe mei, ilam mai, taaqat mai hai..
Khuda ko tu Arsh pe bitha kar khud se dur na kar,
Khud aankhein bandh kar, apne dil mei mehsoos kar!
Khuda hamari sans mei, khuda hamari ruh mei hai!

Tanzila