Fallen

We shared love,

we had laughter,

we made moments

into memories..

Like all others,

we took its course,

we took it slow,

we took it ahead 

and beyond..

Now, its..

Disconnected, stranded,

wounded, betrayed…

you, me and us..

And in all this,

I feel fallen,

yet again..

A strong warrior I was,

a successor, a leader,

in form and kind.

A soul of content

and poise..

something inside me,

is dying..

Now, I am,

a part of the brown soil….

This soil,

has accepted me,

absorbed me,

to ease this pain,

to relieve my suffering…

Tanzila

Torn

TORN

Torn,

like the pages of an old book,

which sat on your shelf..

Torn,

like those used clothes,

in your closet..

Torn,

like your dreams,

shed by this practical life.

Torn,

like a fabric,

of disbelief, mistrust and revenge.

Torn,

with a corroded body,

weak mind and no soul..

Tanzila

The Drift

The Drift

And my soul drifted tonight,
Leaving behind the diamonds to tease,
It drifted with a sudden blow,
Shocked, as it was,
With the day's moments,
Helpless incidents,
less fortunate coincidence...

I am feeling this slow drift..
It kills me little,
It kills me more,
Each time a little more...

The wind from the east,
blew away the soul,
Like the dried winter leaves,
From their moist muddy soil..
Attached they were,
And the wind was harsh,
Ruthless to pay heed to their soil,
roots or life...

The drifts are amazing,
They poison me slowly,
As they are,
Slow, steady and calm..
They pull me away,
From my roots,
They pull me away,
by my branches...

I feel this drift now,
And I wait for my soul,
Across the shore...

Tanzila

Departure

You stood there..stoned,

I moved away

slowly,

releasing you from my grip

my embrace..

I had to, so I did..

In a few days,

we connected so much,

you sang to my heart,

spoke to my mind.

Groomed my love

and let my soul free..

Time passed,

so did moments,

best ones of life until now.

We made memories,

we wrote stories,

We experienced,

experiences to be cherished.

I recall each day,

I remember every promise,

I repeat each vow..

I parted ways to meet again.

We departed, to live,

grow and mature

together..

We departed today,

to nurture this dream 

together …!!

Tanzila

I live a lie

I live a lie 
each passing day
this glitter, glamour
show and fame.

I live a lie 
every moment in time 
in truth i seek
in stories i find

i live a lie 
in harrowing acts
by self, through people
a daily test

i live lies
many big fat ones
pretending compassion
evading peace

I am you
each one of us
living each day

lying to our conscience……..

My Spartan

My Spartan

Teary-eyed I express,

I write this my dear Spartan,

I have witnessed your strength,

I have seen your power 

and full glory.

Today warned me,

of a slow regression,

It echoed mysteries,

of the unknown future.

I always saw you,

 as my warrior,

My Emperor,

greatness personified.

You gifted me this life, 

you made me a fighter,

you taught me to respect

 and value.

Your single moment 

of loss and grief,

Has shuddered my soul 

today, this day.

I fear the future, 

I fear the times,

I fear this helplessness 

Hopelessness of mine,

I fear God’s will, 

I fear my ill fate,

I fear uncertainty, 

I fear pain

I fear my loneliness.

I fear my defeat

by luck and time.

Stay with me,

In person and mind,

Stay with me in my heart,

Stay with me in my soul,

Stay in my existence.

Stay, you are meant to be there,

Here, with me, always.

Never betray me, 

I cannot taste betrayal,

yet again.

Tanzila

I know what it feels like....

I know what it feels like when one is alone, sick and orphaned!!
I know what it feels like when we start to blame others' for someone else's hard luck,
I know what it feels like when misunderstandings only stay because we want them to,
I know what it feels like to be silent, to get silence and to live with silence each day,
I know what it feels like when you cannot depart from a person whose abandoned you,
I know what it feels like when that person returns to you again,
I know what it feels like when you never know the shattered hearts' are irreparable..
I know what it feels like when you know the shattered hearts' are irreparable,
I know it feels how important moments are,
But we often fail to look at the bigger picture........!!!